Artist | Student | Photography
I think I was about seven or eight years old when I first realized that I was actually decent at something.
We were drawing in school, and the teachers complimented my ‘skills’ at this.
(I have come to discover in later years, that this is more of an encouragement rather than the truth)
Nevertheless, it fed my ego for a couple of years. I lived with the thought that my creativity could actually get me somewhere, as long as I strived for perfection.
Then puberty hit, and 'reality' kicked in along it.
By then, my dreams were crushed and I had gotten used to the thought of becoming an office rat.
At least they’re happy and earn decent money, right?
I got through upper secondary school, and it was first four years later at University,
while I was studying property and land management that I again grasped something.
I did alright at school, and I understood:
I would probably do alright at my future job, too.
But being alright is not good enough for me.
I barely studied ten hours a week, while I took photographs and played around in PS probably around four times as much as I studied. And not only did I do this better than "alright" – I was incredibly happy doing it.
I then started playing around with the thought: "If I’m decent at photographing and doing this on my spare time, what will I turn into if I will be allowed to do this all the time?"
A couple of months later, I got offered a spot at Kingston University, at the photography course.
Things got scary, and real. Would I be able to leave everything behind and move to another country?
I grabbed the opportunity, and I haven’t looked back since then. I might strive for perfection as I have always done, but now I know a thing or two about life. First of all, perfection for me will probably and hopefully never be reached – and is no longer even my goal.
It is the process of failing, learning, then failing again, and eventually learning things – that keeps me going. For I know, that in that moment when I have reached perfection, and no longer strive for it – I have done something wrong.
All the same, you will always find me head up high in thoughts.
Thoughts about other thoughts, life, love, passion, photography and everything else in the world. Because that is who I am. I will always try my best and work hard. And if I fall off the horse, I assure you I will get back on again.
(And I’m not only saying that because I did horse riding for ten years).
I’m saying this because I don’t want to be alright, I want to be good.
In fact, I want to be brilliant and happy. However, it’s going to take a decent amount of time for me to get there, so I will dig in and enjoy the ride as much as I can.
Hopefully, the essence of that ride will be captured, and shared with you.